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This is a visual and audio mood board for the R&D, featuring selected inspirations for the project, alongside past work by the core R&D team and their mentors.

Inspirations

Pina Bausch

Tanztheater, experimental blending of movement, text, and dramaturgy

Hofesh Shechter

rave aesthetics within contemporary dance and choreography

Philip Venables

Contemporary opera and vocal music that confronts social and political themes, combining sharp musical language with text-driven dramaturgy and theatrical urgency

Julia Bullock & Michel van der Aa

Julia: Expressive vocal performance combining classical repertoire with contemporary music and social storytelling
Michel: Multimedia opera blending live performance, electronics, and film into tightly integrated theatrical works

Kate Soper

Experimental vocal technique, infusing contemporary classical performance with theatre and text

lyra pramuk

Using the human voice as raw material to create electronically processed choral soundscapes that draw on classical harmonics and electronic music culture

Alexander panos

 dense immersive electronic works, his practice centers on exceptional sound design, rhythmic drive, and carefully sculpted sonic detail

fka twigs

Embodied vocals and highly choreographed, fusing experimental sound, movement, and alternative pop

Our Past work

This is a rough glimpse of a recording of an upcoming short film and album based on Fantasies and Fallacies, a work created in 2025 by Sholto and Toby. Originally conceived as a performance piece for singer and live electronics, the project has since evolved into a quartet work.

Each text, written by Sholto and set to music by Anderson, explores a relationship with a person, an object, or oneself. Drawing on influences from opera, cabaret, live electronics, microtonality, EDM, and pop, the work weaves these elements into a tapestry reflecting on aging, memory, and the formation of identity.

The Komuna collective commissioned the duo to rework the piece for collaborative recording and performance at the 2026 CRASSH Cambridge Film Festival. The work is also being prepared for live performance at the QueerScore Festival, with ongoing discussions underway with Bold Tendencies regarding further development and future presentations.

sholto & Toby

Toby

SATYRS is a new opera, composed by Toby Anderson, about cults, hedonism, and dance that brings ancient
Greek tragedy to the ritualistic world of queer clubbing. Taking The Bacchae as its starting point, SATYRS
paints Euripides' tale of violence and pleasure with a musical palette combining the baroque and the ecstatic.
At the same time, the piece questions the links between ancient pagan ritualism and contemporary queer
social structures. The club is a church; the dance floor the stage for sacrifice.

Sholto

From a performance of Schoenberg’s Brettl-Lieder, recontextualised by Sholto as a cabaret performer experiencing memory loss at the end of his life.

Sholto was coached by Claire Booth, who later described them as “a singer, a curator, a producer, a collaborator — a very versatile and interesting artist, and fiercely intelligent to boot.”

Oscar

Oscar appeared in the music video for Eusexua, a high-profile example of alternative EDM in which dance and rave aesthetics are central. The work sits at the intersection of experimental music, movement, and club culture, with FKA twigs recognised as a leading figure within this contemporary space in popular music.
A solo freestyle performance by Oscar, showcasing his individual movement vocabulary and improvisational practice informed by his work with the Hofesh Shechter dance company.

Courtney

Our Mentors work

From 'Who Hurt You?"

Jennifer

From 'The Site of an Investigation'

Juliet

From Lara Agar's 'This Unquiet Autumn'

Sarah

An excerpt from her DJ set featuring live vocal performance

Dr. marshall

Dr Lo Marshall (they/them) is an interdisciplinary scholar whose research and teaching is oriented around gender, sexuality and cities, with a focus on LGBTQIA+ peoples' lived experiences, and spaces created by and for LGBTQIA+ communities, including community spaces, and queer nightlife scenes and infrastructures. Lo was awarded UCL's 'Intersectional Impact' Inclusion Award in 2024.

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